If you read my previous post about the upcoming 2011 Hot Blogger calendar then you know how much I want to be included.
You also know that I tried to go Hollywood in my quest to be selected as the face of February.
I had Hollywood hair, Hollywood shades, a Hollywood suit coat, Hollywood mystique, even a Hollywood chest thicket that doubled as a furry little playground for the ladies.
But I was so enamored by the glitz and glamor of Hollywood that I completely lost sight of the fact that along with Hollywood fame comes Hollywood scrutiny. As alluring as Hollywood can be, there always seems to be people lurking in the shadows just waiting for an opportunity to tear you down.
Hollywood loves it a scandal. And tonight? An illicit photo helped it score another victim.
I knew that the Hot Blogger calendar contest was going to be competitive and I expected it to be marred by reprehensible tactics as nominees jostled for an advantage. I just never expected to be a target.
Personally, and I have no proof of this, I’m inclined to believe that it was Jim of Busy Dad Blog fame who distributed the photo. He is up for a repeat appearance and anyone who uses raw hamburger for ear plugs can’t be all there.
But alas, knowing who leaked the photo is irrelevant at this point. Right now it’s all about damage control…and honesty.
Yes, the photo shoot occurred. Yes, it was a nude. And yes, I regret it.
I was really hoping to keep my privates private as it’s not something I’m proud of (the photo, not my privates. I’m actually quite proud of those). But when you’re hungry for fame and fortune, and a magazine offers both in exchange for a harmless little full-frontal photo shoot, you disrobe at the opportunity.
As a role model for today’s youth, I realize now that I should have used better judgment. It’s just difficult to have clarity when you’re marinating in a pool of naked.
Perhaps this photo coming to light will hurt my chances. Then again, maybe the Hot Blogger calendar folks will ask me to embrace the controversy and repeat the pose. Only time will tell.
Quite honestly, I don’t see anything wrong with the photo. I’m naked, so what. I actually think I’m a doll. Others just think I have a screw loose. I’ll let you be the judge.